Things Are Lookin' Up

Well, I've found some people I can readily recognize - and this has made life a lot more welcoming and fun. I'll elaborate more on this later, as right now I'm exhausted.

First day of college...

I dunno guys...

Today was my first day of college life. Both of my parents came to help me move in and also say goodbye. But despite my parents being divorced we have a very close family. I also have two younger siblings, so this makes me the first to go off like this.

I am definately something of an anomaly in that I have always been very close to my parents and siblings. Lots of therapy about the divorce led to us all becoming very trusting of one another and willing to include each other in our respective lives. Trying to say goodbye today was one of the hardest things I've ever had to do. It's not just that I love them, I love them being in my life and I don't want that to go away. My brother and sister are going through what is probably the most interesting parts of their life up till now, and I want to be there to see them and watch what they do. I just miss them so much.

I miss my daddy and my mommy...how do I even begin to express that? I love them so much and they no matter how bad anything was, we always got over it and became even closer because of it. And right now I don't have anyone to say "goodnight" to, and definately no one to say "I love you" to. I don't care how pathetic or stupid or whatever anyone thinks I am, I have said both to at least someone I know every night of my life. Of late, it's always been someone in my family. My sister or brother, and always to my mother and father. I want them to know how much I love them. There's nothing wrong with that.

Geez...I miss my friends too...don't get me started on them.

I think the major thing was that even though I got to say goodbye to most of my closest friends, there were a few that I just couldn't find or who were away and not coming back before I left. I know it's not as though I'm never seeing them again, and in truth I'll probably see them soon, but it's still really hard. REALLY hard.

So I guess the rant is over...for now. As with a lot of feelings of being alone, they tend to go away when you're in other people's company, it's just that I'm not right now.

I miss you my loves. All of you. The family and the friends, the memories and the feelings. I want you all to come visit me as soon as you either want to, or are able to.

When's the first train home? Heh...just kidding, I think.

Raspberry Lemonade

There are some things on this Earth that are so fantastic you just can't get enough of them. Some of these things are hummingbirds, the beach, wireless high speed internet...

And Rita's Raspberry Lemonade Water Ice. I'm in love.

College E-Mail...Or Lack Thereof

So I still don't have my college address which means I still can't get on Facebook, which is kinda annoying. The main thing is you aren't allowed to see anything, repeat anything on Facebook unless you can log in. And I can't.

But I still have my blog, oh yes I do.

My Two New Dashboards

The first one concerns Mac OS 10.4, which has a feature in it called Dashboard - an application that uses 'Widgets' as mini-applications so that users can simply press a button, and have an unlimited amount of tools at their finger tips. I'm posting right now on a Blogger widget. I don't have to log on, I can just do it right from my desktop. And I love it.

As for the second new dashboard in my life? Well, we got rid of the Camaro at my Dad's. That's right, no more. What's more intriguiging is the brand new black on black Mustang GT convertible sitting in our drive-way. Fuckin' right doggie.

And I've already driven it, for those who were wondering, and those who said my father would never let me drive his car. I think he's going to let me take it as much as I want since I leave for school so soon...

Hot

It's so hot that it feels like I'm swimming every time I walk outside. But not in nice, cool, refreshing water. No, no. This, this is muggy, hot, gross, heavy air. And I do not like it.

Update

My brother and I watched I, Robot today. I'm sure you all know what I'm talking about; the movie last summer staring Will Smith based on the book by Isaac Asimov.

I liked it much more than I thought I would. Not to mention one scene where I was reminded of some of the best lines to come out of Jurassic Park. They now reside in my profile. For those of you who don't read it, I'm posting them here, because they're that good.

God creates dinosaur.
God destroys dinosaur.
God creates man.
Man destroys God.
Man creates dinosaur.
Dinosaur eats Man.

Woman inherits the Earth.

Bloody brilliant script right there.

Anyway...yeah...life's going slow with only seventeen more days till I'm off to Brooklyn. Who am I kidding? I'm not ready for this.