Let's see...how can I put this?
There are only a few days left in the semester here. Where did all the time go? A silly question, actually, but since when have I been adverse to one of those? Precisely my point.
I'm in a slump. Or something. I can tell you where I'm going tomorrow, but I don't understand myself. But I'm not lost, I just don't know where I should be. There's a difference. I'm not trying to speak in metaphors, or be intentionally misleading. I'm not trying to sound as though I have an air of literary prowess. Those are my true feelings. I am not lost, but I'm not sure where I'm supposed to be either - if anywhere at all.
Letting people down is probably one of my greatest concerns. I never feel more more inadequete than after I've let someone down.
I don't know if I made a mistake, but we haven't spoken in a while. In reality, we never really had all that much contact before I spoke my mind, but now it's actually nothing. Who am I kidding? The mere notion is absolutely ridiculous. I need to wake up. But I won't. I'm stubborn and devoted and resistant. Luckily, there happens to be a synonym for that type of person; an imbecile.
Somebody needs to hit me really hard. Preferably with a tree.
I think my blog has become derelict.
I'll work on that.
I'm in a slump. Or something. I can tell you where I'm going tomorrow, but I don't understand myself. But I'm not lost, I just don't know where I should be. There's a difference. I'm not trying to speak in metaphors, or be intentionally misleading. I'm not trying to sound as though I have an air of literary prowess. Those are my true feelings. I am not lost, but I'm not sure where I'm supposed to be either - if anywhere at all.
Letting people down is probably one of my greatest concerns. I never feel more more inadequete than after I've let someone down.
I don't know if I made a mistake, but we haven't spoken in a while. In reality, we never really had all that much contact before I spoke my mind, but now it's actually nothing. Who am I kidding? The mere notion is absolutely ridiculous. I need to wake up. But I won't. I'm stubborn and devoted and resistant. Luckily, there happens to be a synonym for that type of person; an imbecile.
Somebody needs to hit me really hard. Preferably with a tree.
I think my blog has become derelict.
I'll work on that.
posted by Tilly at 12:22 AM
1 Comments:
tilly hey its me your little sister. Listen to me. I know its hard and i know you feel lost. But everything is going to be okay and your gonna find yourslef when your ready. It doesnt matter where you are or how it happens but you have to have faith and remember never to lose yourself because we all love you too much for that. You'll always belong right here at home if you need a place. Remember that you'll always be someone who im looking up to. You'll always be my big brother and the one who gets me like nobody else. I love you tillman.
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