Weird
So I'm back at school after a weekend at home and I feel...weird. I dunno, it's probably just some stupid thing, I've only been here since this morning after all, but still, things just don't feel the same.
I miss home.
And even though getting on the train and coming back was a lot easier this time than earlier, I still feel like there were things I didn't get to do. Unfinished business, you know? And I miss the way life used to be. I was really happy in high school. I was really happy with the people there too. There were so many things I loved to do, and I don't have a lot of that here. I dunno...
I just miss home.
I miss home.
And even though getting on the train and coming back was a lot easier this time than earlier, I still feel like there were things I didn't get to do. Unfinished business, you know? And I miss the way life used to be. I was really happy in high school. I was really happy with the people there too. There were so many things I loved to do, and I don't have a lot of that here. I dunno...
I just miss home.
posted by Tilly at 1:28 PM
3 Comments:
Tillman I know exactly what you are saying. i went through what you are feeling like 2 weeks ago, but it all works out. You will meet some amazing people there and don't you worry about your friends from high school. We will all always be there. We love you dude
it gets better. promise. and ou've got this advantage where you already LIKE your school, so i bet things'll get better even quicker. it's just weird, adjusting, new people, new... stuff. you probably don't remember how weirded out/miserable i was my first few months at beloit. and then, somewhere along the line, i fell in love with it. right now it's weird for you, because your life doesn't feel like your own. you're out there and you're doing stuff, but te routine isn't what you're used to, the people aren't what you're used to... it's so much change, all at once. but eventually, while you're not looking, you slip into The Groove. suddenly you'll find yourself referring to New York as "home", and you'll talk to your friends from high school and tell them stories and realize that none of them have any clue what you're talking about. that's ok. it's called growing up. it's weird and tough now, but it gets better. (it never stops being weird and tough, but it DOES get better.)
i don't know if that made sense. or helped. just know that what you're feeling + going through is so, so normal, and that it really will work itself out.
home misses you too. there's a cutout picture of you taped to the window of the art cave. not that that's creepy or anything... but the point is, you'll find your groove in college, and have an amazing time - no doubt about it.
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