First day of college...
I dunno guys...
Today was my first day of college life. Both of my parents came to help me move in and also say goodbye. But despite my parents being divorced we have a very close family. I also have two younger siblings, so this makes me the first to go off like this.
I am definately something of an anomaly in that I have always been very close to my parents and siblings. Lots of therapy about the divorce led to us all becoming very trusting of one another and willing to include each other in our respective lives. Trying to say goodbye today was one of the hardest things I've ever had to do. It's not just that I love them, I love them being in my life and I don't want that to go away. My brother and sister are going through what is probably the most interesting parts of their life up till now, and I want to be there to see them and watch what they do. I just miss them so much.
I miss my daddy and my mommy...how do I even begin to express that? I love them so much and they no matter how bad anything was, we always got over it and became even closer because of it. And right now I don't have anyone to say "goodnight" to, and definately no one to say "I love you" to. I don't care how pathetic or stupid or whatever anyone thinks I am, I have said both to at least someone I know every night of my life. Of late, it's always been someone in my family. My sister or brother, and always to my mother and father. I want them to know how much I love them. There's nothing wrong with that.
Geez...I miss my friends too...don't get me started on them.
I think the major thing was that even though I got to say goodbye to most of my closest friends, there were a few that I just couldn't find or who were away and not coming back before I left. I know it's not as though I'm never seeing them again, and in truth I'll probably see them soon, but it's still really hard. REALLY hard.
So I guess the rant is over...for now. As with a lot of feelings of being alone, they tend to go away when you're in other people's company, it's just that I'm not right now.
I miss you my loves. All of you. The family and the friends, the memories and the feelings. I want you all to come visit me as soon as you either want to, or are able to.
When's the first train home? Heh...just kidding, I think.
Today was my first day of college life. Both of my parents came to help me move in and also say goodbye. But despite my parents being divorced we have a very close family. I also have two younger siblings, so this makes me the first to go off like this.
I am definately something of an anomaly in that I have always been very close to my parents and siblings. Lots of therapy about the divorce led to us all becoming very trusting of one another and willing to include each other in our respective lives. Trying to say goodbye today was one of the hardest things I've ever had to do. It's not just that I love them, I love them being in my life and I don't want that to go away. My brother and sister are going through what is probably the most interesting parts of their life up till now, and I want to be there to see them and watch what they do. I just miss them so much.
I miss my daddy and my mommy...how do I even begin to express that? I love them so much and they no matter how bad anything was, we always got over it and became even closer because of it. And right now I don't have anyone to say "goodnight" to, and definately no one to say "I love you" to. I don't care how pathetic or stupid or whatever anyone thinks I am, I have said both to at least someone I know every night of my life. Of late, it's always been someone in my family. My sister or brother, and always to my mother and father. I want them to know how much I love them. There's nothing wrong with that.
Geez...I miss my friends too...don't get me started on them.
I think the major thing was that even though I got to say goodbye to most of my closest friends, there were a few that I just couldn't find or who were away and not coming back before I left. I know it's not as though I'm never seeing them again, and in truth I'll probably see them soon, but it's still really hard. REALLY hard.
So I guess the rant is over...for now. As with a lot of feelings of being alone, they tend to go away when you're in other people's company, it's just that I'm not right now.
I miss you my loves. All of you. The family and the friends, the memories and the feelings. I want you all to come visit me as soon as you either want to, or are able to.
When's the first train home? Heh...just kidding, I think.
posted by Tilly at 9:33 PM
3 Comments:
it will all be ok - you will see
SAD DAY! TILLMAN UR GONE!!! I MISS U ALREADY! gosh it was totally different when i could just get into a car and drive over if i felt like it. even tho i never did it. it was still comferting to have that little cushin to say i kno where tillman is and we could hang if we wanted to. UGH but now ur off in NY and im jelious and sad because possibly the coolest person i kno JUST LEFT. ugh gosh darn u tillman. GOSH DARN U ! u will not be forgotten. believe me! i love you!
yay homesickness. it's been my bud the past few days . . .
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