Archivalry

It's never been easy for me to see my friends in a situation where something is troubling them. Scratch that...I hate to see my friends troubled. Or in pain, physical or emotional. I Detest it. I can't stand it. Probably one of my shortcomings is that I have always been willing to put myself on the line just to make sure that should a friend need anything, I am there without hesitation.

Sometimes it doesn't matter about right and wrong. Sometimes you just want to make sure that someone feels better about things. Sometimes it has to be about making them smile. And it doesn't matter how many times they say they are okay. You have to keep offering because all it takes is for them to say they want to talk about things once to be worth it.

And unless there's a very specific reason, I don't like to draw lines.

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So where the hell am I? Still lingering in that same state of mind as I was six months ago? Have I moved on? Have I moved away from some and still kept others tucked safely in the deeper bowels of my mind? Do I want to find someone? To love someone, no matter how long it is for?

Well...yes.

It's summer, there are no problems with school or requirements, no lines to memorize and no juries to prepare for.

There are, however, girls. What else is there to do but sit back and see where things go? I do want something, but I am completely open about it. When you start the summer out single there's no other way to be.